>Sweet Dreams

>Two nights ago, I dreamed about my Nan. Although I think about her every day, it’s the first vivid dream about her I can remember since she passed a couple of months ago. I can’t stop thinking about it, and when I do, it makes me happy and sad all at the same time. I wanted to write it down somewhere, and this blog where I share a little of my life seemed as good a place as any.

In the dream, my family and I are all at a beach.

Note: When I was little, my aunt and uncle lived in a beautiful oceanfront condo in Clearwater where Nan and I spent most of our weekends and holidays together. It was my favorite place in the world, and it’s the backdrop of many of my best childhood memories.

Back to the dream… we’re at a beach that’s familiar to all of us {maybe that beach} and it’s really dark — like right before a storm or after the sunset. I see the other members of my family around me building sandcastles and playing in the water; but at the center of the dream, it’s just Nan and me. I know my time with her is winding down, and I want to savor every second that I have left with her. We sit and talk in the sand, share our favorite stories, and wade in the water together.

Every time she walks down the beach without me, I panic and think, “this is it, she’s gone.” But each time, she comes back, and tells me how much she loves me and comforts me in that special way that only she can.

Finally, she goes for a swim in the ocean. She’s gone for a long time, and the rest of my family starts to gather with me at the edge of the water. We all know that it’s over, and she won’t be back this time. But I’m not sad… instead I feel wrapped in an amazing peace and calm.

It was the most beautiful dream I’ve ever had. It was the goodbye I wasn’t strong enough to have with her when she passed, because I was such a mess during those last days. I hope she visits me again soon.

Love and blessings to all of you and your loved ones tonight :)

About Keira Lennox

I'm a small town girl from the sunshine state with an affinity for bookstores, beauty counters and unfussy style. I spend my days running my flower shop, and my nights blogging about what I love and what I wear. (Or watching Netflix and drinking wine.)

13 thoughts on “>Sweet Dreams

  1. >Keira, I know some people give scientific explanations for our dreams. And those explanations are probably true. But I firmly believe we can connect with our loved ones in our dreams. It's very real. Just as real as anything we experience awake. Really, what's the difference? I know you will see your Nan again and again. I think it's so wonderful that you are finding the peace and calm that eluded you in her final days. xo

  2. >Oh Keira. What a beautiful dream. I'm glad you thought of this blog as a place to record it and that you shared it with us in the process. Thank you.

  3. >I believe when you dream of someone who has passed, that person has visited you. Believing this makes me feel peaceful and calm. I, too, dream about my grandmother, and I always light a candle for her soul. Just makes me feel connected to her, I loved her very much.

  4. >This is my own personal belief (and its not meant to offend anyone in anyway), but I think that was your Nan visiting you. And you had your family with you, which is such a blessing. :)Unfortunately, I don't have much of a relationship with any of my grandparents, but I am quite close to my mother. I feel so lucky to have her as my mother, and I feel so lucky for you to have had your Nan in your life. You can always meet in your dreams :)

  5. >Thank you for sharing this. I had a dream similar to this the night after my grandmother's funeral last year. My mom said it was Memaw's special gift to me. I'm glad you received this special gift too. It brought tears to my eyes.

  6. >:-) I had a Nan (Nana) too. My middle name, Garland, was her middle name too. I wish I had dreams about her. Thank you for sharing. Brynne Garland

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