Today is mine.

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{ That Flower Shop in London via catesthill.com }

Today is mine. Tomorrow is none of my business. If I peer anxiously into the fog of the future, I will strain my spiritual eyes so that I will not see clearly what is required of me now.

– Elisabeth Elliot

I saw this quote in a post by @dearmushka  while I scrolled through Instagram Sunday night. I scribbled it down on some scrap paper and thought, ‘whew, I need this right now.’

Back in June, C and I signed a lease on a new location for our flower shop. It’s my dream-come-true space with all the fixin’s: exposed brick interiors; open ceilings; polished concrete floors; wall-to-wall windows; Main Street frontage; direct adjacency to a cheese shop (wink).

Six months ago, it seemed like a far-off fantasy, but now we’re about four weeks out from the big move (!!) and under all my anticipation and excitement — and disbelief that this is, like, actually happening — there’s a deep humming layer of anxiety. With maybe a tiny sprinkle of terror?

Relocation is a risk. We moved the shop three and a half years ago, and now we’re at it again, and all that dreaminess comes with bigger expenses, and we can’t find someone to commit to move our walk-in cooler at a cost that won’t require us to sell our kidneys on the black market, and ugh, all the packing, and and and…

If I let myself think about it all too much, the anxiety bubbles right up to the surface and punches me in the throat.

Here’s the thing: I know it’s going to be wonderful. It’s the very best thing for our business. The logistics will work out, we’ll settle into our beautiful new ‘home,’ and six months from now, there will probably be a new challenge to hurtle. #entrepreneurship (Or, um,  life.)

I can’t control all the moving parts of tomorrow, and I’d be foolish to think worrying about them would make a bit of difference. So I’ll catch some chill, send up gratitude for today, and let my ‘spiritual eyes’ focus on the present.

Because the present is pretty good.

So if you’re an over-thinker  like me, and you excel at worrying about all the what ifs of the future — such a useless talent, really — I hope you find some comfort in this quote, too. Today is ours.

Also, isn’t That Flower Shop in London just incredible? GOALS.

About Keira Lennox

I'm a small town girl from the sunshine state with an affinity for bookstores, beauty counters and unfussy style. I spend my days running my flower shop, and my nights blogging about what I love and what I wear. (Or watching Netflix and drinking wine.)

31 thoughts on “Today is mine.

    1. This may be my new favorite quote, Keira. This post summed me up to a tee. Anxiety, worry and overthinking are “what I do.” Thanks for the reminder that “Today is ours.” Best of luck on the new shop. I know it will be nothing short of AH-Mazing. I can hardly wait to see pictures. xo, Crissa

  1. I feel this way the closer I get to finishing my first book. Total panic mixed with pure excitement. Good luck with your move!

  2. I totally and completely struggle with getting caught up in the worry as well. And you are right, things will be okay. Good luck and congratulations! This sounds really amazing!

    1. Thanks, Erin! Sometimes I remind myself that if I’m anxious about something, I must be passionate about it, otherwise I wouldn’t care enough to worry. I’m trying to learn to channel my anxiety from worry to excitement. I haven’t mastered it yet. Ha! ;)

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