Today is mine. Tomorrow is none of my business. If I peer anxiously into the fog of the future, I will strain my spiritual eyes so that I will not see clearly what is required of me now.
– Elisabeth Elliot
I saw this quote in a post by @dearmushka while I scrolled through Instagram Sunday night. I scribbled it down on some scrap paper and thought, ‘whew, I need this right now.’
Back in June, C and I signed a lease on a new location for our flower shop. It’s my dream-come-true space with all the fixin’s: exposed brick interiors; open ceilings; polished concrete floors; wall-to-wall windows; Main Street frontage; direct adjacency to a cheese shop (wink).
Six months ago, it seemed like a far-off fantasy, but now we’re about four weeks out from the big move (!!) and under all my anticipation and excitement — and disbelief that this is, like, actually happening — there’s a deep humming layer of anxiety. With maybe a tiny sprinkle of terror?
Relocation is a risk. We moved the shop three and a half years ago, and now we’re at it again, and all that dreaminess comes with bigger expenses, and we can’t find someone to commit to move our walk-in cooler at a cost that won’t require us to sell our kidneys on the black market, and ugh, all the packing, and and and…
If I let myself think about it all too much, the anxiety bubbles right up to the surface and punches me in the throat.
Here’s the thing: I know it’s going to be wonderful. It’s the very best thing for our business. The logistics will work out, we’ll settle into our beautiful new ‘home,’ and six months from now, there will probably be a new challenge to hurtle. #entrepreneurship (Or, um, life.)
I can’t control all the moving parts of tomorrow, and I’d be foolish to think worrying about them would make a bit of difference. So I’ll catch some chill, send up gratitude for today, and let my ‘spiritual eyes’ focus on the present.
Because the present is pretty good.
So if you’re an over-thinker like me, and you excel at worrying about all the what ifs of the future — such a useless talent, really — I hope you find some comfort in this quote, too. Today is ours.
Also, isn’t That Flower Shop in London just incredible? GOALS.